A new beginning ...

... and a new blog address.

Have moved to http://elyxia.wordpress.com, do update your links! :)

Failure

So, I checked my final results today and found that I got 2 B- for my last 2 papers. Which, of course, brought my average way down.

5 semesters of suffering all ruined by 2 bad exams. And my dreams of finally, at long last, being able to graduate from somewhere with an A average - shattered.

I'm so stunned I can't even cry.

Misery

Life sucks.

It hurts to be, to feel, unwanted.

I really wish I didn't care. But fact is, I do.


An ex-colleague of mine killed himself a few weeks back.

He was single and in his late thirties. He had his whole life ahead of him, but perhaps he felt that there wasn't anything worth living for.


Being lonely is one of the most miserable feelings in life.

I understand why he did it now.

Rest in peace, B.

Serenity

I just love Firefly. What a pity the series was pulled after just one measly season.

Niche is dead. Long live the Mass Market.

Firefly Theme Song

Take my love, take my land
Take me where I cannot stand

I don't care, I'm still free
You can't take the sky from me

Take me out to the black
Tell them I ain't comin' back

Burn the land and boil the sea
You can't take the sky from me

There's no place I can be
Since I found Serenity

But you can't take the sky from me...

You can listen to the themesong here.


Goodbye, old girl. I'll miss you.

Uh oh

Am I so dead or what?

Never Date a Cancer

Clingy, emotional, and very private - it's hard to escape a Cancer's clutches. And while Cancer will want to know everything about you, they're anything but open in return. Instead try dating: Leo, Sagittarius, Gemini, or Aquarius

What Sign Shouldn't You Date?

Will the real rabid hamster please stand up?

It suddenly struck me. All my problems are so "real world" that it scares me.

Oh boy, I'm turning into one of those faceless, nameless, forgotten beings that you see everyday, trudging along Raffles Place and Orchard Road.

All I need now is some smart-ass, elitist R****** kid to tell me what a wretched, sorry creature I am.

I wish I didn't have to deal with all this, haha.

The peril of phone cameras ...

... is that you get trigger happy and take totally pointless pictures.

Electronic sign at the MRT station. Err, methinks they need a hardware upgrade.

Justice Bao would flip if he saw this.

The stress monster attacks, woe is me!

I think I have never gone through so much stress in my life. The other day in the office, my head hurt like nothing I'd felt before, I felt sick to my stomach and I couldn't concentrate at all. I'm going nuts, I tell you!

Here are the guilty parties:


Exams: Exams the coming Monday and Saturday, and I've hardly started studying. Can't seem to get into the groove, unlike the past few semesters.

It doesn't help that the exam date was pushed forward by 1 week - AFTER I had booked my leave - and subsequently, I wasn't able to change the leave dates because my colleagues all had prior plans. Sigh.


Work: So many new things to learn! It hurts being the most junior (in terms of years of relevant experience) in the department. It hurts to start all over again, from scratch. It hurts when folks 3 years my junior are 2 grades higher than me.

Why did I choose to start all over again when I could have had a cushy life in my old job?


Job Security: Good news - I've been offered a permanent position at my present company. Not-so-good news - At an "entry level graduate" grade.
Damn bad news - At half my current pay.

Sigh. What am I going to live on?


Loans - I suppose I should announce it now: The S.O. and I put down a deposit for a condo in St. Michael's. (Yes, most people don't know where it is, just look it up lah! :P)

No wedding plans yet. I'm happy to stay single for now and the not-so-distant future.

With a lower pay, how am I going to make the payments for the house?

I suppose I was dumb to make the purchase before my employment issues had been settled, but sometimes your emotions get the better of you and you make impulse decisions, y'know?


Please let me strike Toto real soon! Haha!